Hi ya’ll! So glad to be FINALLY sitting down at my computer on this Sunday afternoon. I really am just looking forward to a weekend where nothing needs to be clean, nothing needs to be laundered, nothing needs to be maintained, so I am able to devote my time to you and this website. I have found myself to be inundated with watching and reading other wonderful websites that have truly caught my heart, but there has always been something deep within me that says, “oh, isn’t there a PERFECT website out there for me?”
Well, I am a writer. And I have been the owner of quite a few websites over the years. But this is different. This is a road I have NEVER been on before. What happens is that the moment I try to figure out what to write, two things usually occur. Right now, I have two things I DESPERATELY want to do.
Take a nap or write this post.
Well, that’s a problem of all problems, I tell you. If I put myself down for a nap (yes, even at 43, sometimes I have to treat myself like a toddler that is in line for a much-needed nap), then I’ll lay there thinking about this post. Sitting here as I am typing this, my brain is thinking, “I can’t even imagine how cool my goose-down pillow is right now, and how perfect it would feel under my head”. Yup. Mid-forties, still can’t make a decision to save my soul. I have found that is one of me and my husband’s biggest arguments, because he will ask me a question, and I have absolutely NO idea how to answer. That’s something I definitely want to work on and make better in my life.
I went from living a rather boisterous, radical life to realizing my true happiness was through modesty, humility, and an overall submission to the will of God on how he views my life and how I should be living it right now.
And look, I cannot forget my past, and I’m not saying I’m going to be judging how women live their life. This is just a personal journey that I am going through on my own here. I just ask for those still not understanding my journey to just respect it from afar if you have to. I’m not here to fight and right now I’m not strong enough to debate. My life is still incredibly emotional that debating others who proactively seek me out, friend or foe, is too much right now, and I just ask you all to respect what’s I’m going through.
Moving on from that, I do want to talk about something that has seemed to have taken off into the curious minds of those around me.
WHAT’S WITH THE SCARVES ON YOUR HEAD?
I know, I know. It’s an adjustment to me as well.
In fact, everything about this new path has been a mega-adjustment. Like a child learning how to walk, living a completely different way needs to be handled delicately. Although I am a 43 year old woman of sound-mind, spiritually, I am only a few months old. I’m doing things that honestly I NEVER in my life thought I’d ever do. My progressive, liberal views have changed drastically, and sometimes it’s difficult for me to walk forward on certain tasks. Head covering included.
(me with all my new ways to head cover)
In fact, I am going on my 3rd week of covering full time. I was paranoid at the fact I would be called out for it. But, I work for a great company that thrives on diversity, and 95% of the people who I’ve encountered have been incredibly supportive. So much, that my company has asked me to be a speaker for a Christian event coming up in October that will allow me to discuss my journey and testimony, including the promise to head cover. Sure, there were a few that were less-than-courteous, and I just chalk that up to ignorance. Not in the sense they were mean, no, just uneducated on that particular circumstance.
What has been even more amazing, is the fact that with this head covering movement I started in my own little world, it also helped me make a decision in my life. To enforce my decision, my amazing Mom said to me earlier today, (sweetie, you need to sit down and carve out your “what makes me happiest” you want in your life)….And boy is she RIGHT ON THE MONEY! Last week the enemy was hitting me left and right, even with saying the Warrior prayer, Satan and his strongholds were attacking me everywhere they could hit me. This is an opportune time to get stronger! And with the renewed vigor in my body, mind and spirit, I’m ready to tackle on the one thing I DO believe have been keeping me from doing my dream!
So, that’s what’s going on right now. I want to try to get a post out at least once a week. And the more I become comfortable and strong in my body, my faith and my love not just for God, but for myself, I will have more to contribute to this movement.
Be blessed and have a great week!