This morning I got up to log onto work for the day, and I noticed an anomaly that I haven’t seen in these parts in a long time. SNOW. Now sadly, I didn’t get a chance to take a picture, because quite honestly, my brain was not at normal functioning levels for me to even think to do that. For the last 2 ½ years, my wake up call was between 9-9:15AM. Now, it’s 7:30AM. That 90 minute difference is a bit much for this soon-to-be 47 year old. Hopefully after a few months of this new schedule, I will be more cognizant in the morning.
Winter has finally arrived here in Southeast Pennsylvania
We haven’t seen snow in my town in a couple years. Call it climate change, call it global warming. But the last couple years, snow has been almost non-existent in my part of the world. And for someone that has had some serious difficulty with snow/cold temperatures in general, I’ve been completely A-OK with this. Yet, if this year has taught me anything, it’s to appreciate the present and stop thinking/worrying about the future.
Honestly I cannot even believe I’m saying that! If anyone knows me, you know that Winter is extremely difficult for me. My Seasonal Depression (also known as SAD), is usually over the roof between now and Mid-March. My energy levels plummet, my motivation is practically non-existent. And yet, 2020 showed me that it is NOT worth it! The warrior in me wants to fight this. Until I get to my Heavenly home, I need to understand that where I am living at right now, I need to deal with the good AND the bad. So I need to make the most of the time I have here.
Lately I’ve been watching a lot of documentaries about my ancestors from Ireland, Scotland and Scandinavia. I’m a Scotch-Irish Viking, dangit! And let me tell you, they did some really cool stuff back in the day when it came to Winter. Without getting in all the magical properties of their culture (I cannot go down that rabbit hole for personal reasons), I’ve been mainly watching the culinary and domesticated ways my ancestors handled the cold. Especially in that part of the world, there are areas that sees the sun rise and set and only a few hours from each other. Darkness for most of the year sounds incredibly upsetting to me. But I like to think of myself as a domesticated pet who has NO idea how my feral brethren did it for as long as they did. In many ways, the Industrial Revolution made many of us lazy. As easy as it is to switch on a light, or turn on a fireplace heater, I can easily say 90% of this population would die in the event of an EMP disaster.
How much would I love to have a wood burning stove in my house, as well as a window in my kitchen, part of my deck covered, and a cobb stove outside? These are things on my wish list, and until then, I need to work with what I have. We are planning on staying here for a while, and until then, we might as well really get into the nesting process that I ignored when I moved in here 5 years ago. The moment cold weather hits, I retreat into my own depression, and it’s really easy to just stay there. This year, I am going to press on through that and force the change that needs to be made. There’s a big difference in hibernating during winter and retreating. In my eyes, when you retreat, you walk away, you surrender. When you hibernate, you go into quiet mode for a temporary amount of time. Retreating is permanent, whereas hibernating is temporary.
So, this year, I’m going to hibernate.
Taking from my Scandinavian ancestors, I turn to the old tradition of Hygge. (pronounced Hoo-Ga). It is the tradition of nesting, getting cozy, hibernating. There are amazing YouTube videos that talk about Hygge and what it entails. SLOW AND SIMPLE LIVING. If you want to understand my need for slow and simple living, go check out my blog post here.
The Lord created this world for a reason. There’s a reason why we are born to a certain country, race, culture, climate, etc. I have spent countless years trying to get away from a season that I never really got to understand. Why would God have me live in the North if I’m not supposed to enjoy it? There’s no doubt I LOVE the change of the seasons. Even Autumn into Winter, there is a small period where my body, mind and soul enjoy the change. But it’s a very short time, and I spiral quickly afterwards. So, how does one try to keep the joy for that entire season, like I do the other three?
This is my quest.
Now that I am working from home, I have the ability to nest a bit more. Before, I was out of the house somewhere between 6:30AM and 9PM, depending on where I was working. No more! Linus is quite happy that Mama is home every day, and if a puppy’s love is not motivation enough, I’m in big trouble!
How do you hibernate in the Winter? I’m legitimately curious. This is a big challenge for me, so any advice would be truly appreciative!
For the last twenty years, I have been studying and researching the basic necessities for survival. I had no idea what I was doing at first, it really started with my first marriage and my first home. My next door neighbor, Tina, was one of the smartest people I had ever met, and she was the one who put the tiny bug in me regarding sowing, growing and preserving my own food. I had gardened in the past, mainly with my father and one of my grandfathers, Leon, when I was little. I even had a toy house my father built for me when I was very young, where I would play “house” and keep silly things like linens and wood, old plates and glasses in there, in case I was in need of them. Who knew these tiny little things would one day become integral in my adult life. Sure, it sounds simple, if not a little silly to talk about such things, but our children today have NOT a clue about these things. In fact, the school district where my children go to high school do not even have a Home Economics class in their curriculum. No, it is actually called “Smart Consumerism”, which I later found most school districts in the country have. Most have not a clue how to sew, cook, clean, or budget. They only know how to make money and how to consume it. My sons actually had ONE cooking class, where they learned to make mini pizzas with mini bagels. No learning of preserving foods, growing them and harvesting them, and our town is actually listed as a rural area! This is what society is today. We have been taught not how to fend for ourselves, but that others do it for us, and we just pay them for their services.
A subculture decades ago started forming, many of which would be called “Preppers”. Those not in that frey joke and call them alt-right wing conservatives, gun toting born again fundies who live off grid and wait for the apocalypse to arrive. Sure, I am sure there are those who meet those characteristics, but the majority of these preppers are just individuals and families who have been quietly preparing themselves in the event an event would come about that would cause us to revert back to a more rustic way of living.
I am one of those people.
I dove into the world of survivalism many years ago, and with the state of our society today, I’m all the more glad for it. Even though I’m not the greatest gardener, not the greatest cook, not the greatest organizer, I DO know that if our world comes to a halt, we’re going to be okay for a bit. Deep in the recess of my mind, I think I really wasn’t expecting this outbreak of the COVID-19 to happen. Well, at least, not of this magnitude. Our country has come to a halt, and because of this, many who do not know these skills were forced to spend most of their money to buy supplies, causing the supermarket to become bare of these supplies. People hoarded these supplies, taken over by greed and fear, price gouging others who didn’t get there quick enough. When in a state of fear, we revert to animal instincts. What happens, though, when our instincts have gone to the back recesses of our mind because society taught us these instincts were useless?
Survival skills are not on most of our societies’ minds today. This is precisely what should have been instilled in our children at a young age, a proactive approach to preparing themselves so that in times like this current crisis, chaos and fear would not be the leading emotion in our society.
We have to be better than this.
We have to be smarter than this.
We have to stop blaming others for what’s happening and take accountability for our behaviors, and learn from this.
We have to stop expecting someone else to take care of the issue because we were not prepared for it in the first place.
We live in an age of amazing technology, where so many resources are at the palm of our hands. Videos, articles, books, seminars, they are everywhere. Yet, most people turn a blind eye. I cannot necessarily blame them, many were brought up in the age of consumerism, where the free market has given us a way to live a life of privilege. And guys, let’s face it, most of us live in a privileged society. We have the privilege of buying what we need when we need it. From something simple like a candy bar to a case of bottled water.
Sooner or later, though, time was eventually going to be used up and we would eventually have to fend for ourselves. I believe this pandemic we have been facing is just the tip of the iceberg. If anything, maybe it is God telling us to stop playing around and get ourselves in order.
I want to tell you some of the things I have been doing over the last several years to prepare for these types of times that will be eventually coming to pass.
Wealth to me is more than money. It’s a fully loaded pantry, it’s a bountiful garden, it’s the knowledge I gave myself when others thought I was crazy for learning it. No degree will give you these skills, and no one can take them away once you acquire them.
When my Mom-Mom was alive, she lived with us for the last 6 years of her life. And every Christmas, she would request the largest bags of flour and sugar imaginable so we could bake our yearly cookies, cakes, pies and other desserts. I remember many years ago thinking how nice it was we had so much of these ingredients, because it resulted in less frequent trips to the grocery store. And we all know with the holidays, trips to the market can be tedious and overwhelming.
So, I started buying large quantities of flour, sugar, oats and rice. These four ingredients can make a multitude of things from breads, cakes, pie crusts, cereals, granolas, puddings, etc. I also started buying spices in bulk. If it was a dry good, I was buying a lot of it.
I also started collecting mason jars and canning pots. I began with a simple recipe, sauerkraut. But I have also learned how to pickle everything I could possibly pickle. Fermenting foods are not just good economically, but in health as well.
We also invested in a chest freezer, to keep meats and other goods preserved, so we could buy these things in bulk.
Did you know that cloth and beeswax can actually do away with tin foil and plastic wrap? And cloth without the beeswax are great alternatives to paper towels and napkins. Can you only imagine how simple it is to get a piece of fabric, scissors and a needle and some thread? The possibilities are endless and you aren’t contributing to the excess waste that is killing our world.
I just informed my husband that my main project for this year is creating and building a cob oven for outside. It’s not a necessity, mainly because we have a charcoal grill that can easily be used with wood. But economically speaking, imagine how low your gas or electric bill would drop if you spent more time cooking outdoors? We have a chiminea and a fire pit, so no matter what, cooking will always be an easy task for us. To make a cob oven, all you need are bricks, glass bottles, soil, sand, clay and water. Most have all this already at your disposal.
Gardening and Foraging
I don’t think anyone needs to be an expert to understand the necessity of gardening. Sadly, we have grown weak in the mind from the daily convenience of going to the grocery store and getting whatever produce we need. I feel I need to tell you, things are gearing up to change in this world, and the current pandemic is just a slice of what’s to come. I know plenty of people who have no desire in the world to garden, but I implore you, you will NEED to know this very thing in order to survive. Right now, imports are being put on hold, so many of our tropical fruits and vegetables will be less available, if any at all soon enough. What happens if grocery stores close? How will you feed yourself and your family?
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Convenience has made us a very lazy society. We want what we want when we want it, and all we need to do is click on something from a smart device, or jump into a vehicle and go somewhere who has it made already for me. What will you do if these conveniences were no longer available?
Think about this – Look at our domesticated animals. Especially the new “toy” breeds that are out there. For society’s own self-interests we created these beautiful little beings. But if humans were no longer here, what group do you think will be the first to die from the feral population or just lack of supervision? We create things out of convenience and sometimes selfish desires, and we forget the consequences if something bad were to happen. It was easy before to look away from this possibility, but seeing where we are now, we can no longer ignore what’s staring right in front of us.
So, whether its food waste, plant waste, human/pet waste, almost everything that is wasteful can be composted one way or another.
What would happen if water was no longer available? Meaning, the water company no longer worked and there was no water in the pipes for disbursing…What would you do? Did you know flushing toilets didn’t come until 1596 but honestly didn’t even become mainstream until the late 1800’s. Think about that. How did people go to the bathroom? Currently, many people living off grid/camping, etc use a tool called composting toilets. There is NO smell, and actually more hygienic than flush toilets. Unfortunately, our convenience-based minds cannot understand this concept because flushing toilets means that flush makes it go away from you. Out of sight, out of mind, right? Seriously, all you need is a bucket, toilet seat, toilet paper and saw dust, and you’re all set. Sure, it’s not pretty, but it works and it’s a lot more hygienic than water flush toilets.
There are so many home products you can make on your own with just a few ingredients you may already have in your home. From detergent, toothpaste, soap, hand sanitizer, lotions, salves, balms, you name it, you can most likely make it.
At the end of the day, you HAVE the ability to make life easier for yourself and your family by knowing these skills:
Light a fire
Tying a Knot
Also, look into the concept of Bug Out Bags. These are emergency bags used for just that: Emergencies. I am in the middle of creating one bag but I need 4 for each member of my family. It’s just a simple backpack with clothes, food, first aid, and survival tools like a compass, batteries, solar chargers, knives, cooking equipment that can fit together if the need to vacate your home arises.
At the end of the day, these skills WILL get you through tough times. No, we are not at The Walking Dead level yet, but if we continue to turn a blind eye and continue to make ourselves believe everything will still be at the tip of a finger/delivered to you when and where you want, you will be like the toy breed animals who will be naturally selected first. You’re better than that! So go learn these skills! Like I said above, NO ONE can EVER take that away from you!
I have so many flipping blog posts that are in the presence of being written, but this never ending brain of mine refuses to turn off, which puts me in a situation where I am writing several posts simultaneously.
Over the last few weeks, I have noticed the talk of the great Rapture of the church has increased. Constant chatter about dates, moons, feasts and such, and watching/listening to brothers and sisters try to figure out when the Bride of Christ is going home. It makes me concerned, because we are not to know the actual time it’s supposed to happen. In scripture, where it talks about coming like a “thief in the night”, and that we are not to know the day or the hour of the Lord’s coming, it is actually NOTtalking about the Rapture; it’s really talking about the second coming of Christ. I truly believe that we should be watchful/mindful of the fact Yeshua IS coming back and we, the Bride of Christ, will be joining Him in the air as we head for the Marriage Supper of the Lamb. However, we should not be focusing on WHEN; when we should be ministering and witnessing to those who have not been saved by the grace of our Lord yet.
Do not get me wrong, I love to talk about the upcoming Rapture. I personally do not care if we are Pre, Mid or Post Tribulation; and I wish my fellow brothers and sisters would understand and take heed on that. Are we living in end times? You bet we are! The Bible clearly states this and what we need to look for. Earthquakes, Volcanic Eruptions, Tidal Waves, Hurricanes, Wildfires, and an all-around lack for the Lord are true and legitimate signs that we are at the end of our days here on Earth. I don’t even need to go into the biblical prophecies that have been already fulfilled over the last century. But does Abba show us in the Bible WHEN He will catch us up to Heaven? As in timing? Well, that’s still up for debate. We tend to forget time does not exist in eternity. But I do believe Abba gave us clues within scripture to help us look for the actual season of the Rapture. Although many brothers and sisters still use chapters and verses in the Bible that are specifically about Jesus’ second coming, and relay them as passages about the Rapture, it’s really not far off from the Truth, which is we really have no idea when this will happen. Yet, when you look into some of the books of the Bible while verifying events that are happening on earth, one can surely see certain areas of life as we know it. We can easily come to a simple conclusion that all these events in scripture have led us to this present day knowledge that something is stirring in the air. Let’s take a look at some of those passages: Revelation 3:10
“Since you have kept My command to endure patiently, I will also keep you from the hour of trial that is going to come on the whole world to test the inhabitants of the earth.”
“But our citizenship is in Heaven, and we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables Him to bring everything under His control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like His glorified body.”
“He said to them, ‘ It is not for you to know the times or dates the Father has set by His own authority. But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes on you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in all Judea and Samaria, and to the ends .of the earth.'”
Luke 17: 34-37
“I tell you, on that night two people will be in one bed; one will be taken and the other left. Two women will be grinding grain together; one will be taken and the other left.” “Where, Lord?” they asked. He replied, “Where there is a dead body, there the vultures will gather.”
These are the very Bible passages that <to me> are about the Rapture. All other passages are <again, to me> about the Second Coming of our Lord Yeshua, the Messiah, the Christ.
Now that we got that out of the way, I’m sure you’re asking, “What in Sam Hill does this have to do with Death and the Changing of the Seasons?” Keep up with me, baby birds, I promise to feed you.
We are heading into the darker part of the year. With that comes some beautiful biblical feasts like the Feasts of Trumpets, Feast of Tabernacles, Yom Kipper and more. This is the time of year when we find ourselves digging a little deeper into the soul, trying to understand purpose. I happen to love this time of year, the world becomes another Spring, where the leaves become the flowers. The smell of campfires to keep warm, hearty stews and soups to keep us nourished, fuzzy socks and blankets, and deeper conversations with the company you keep. For me, that’s perfection, until the end of December when everything becomes truly dead in this part of the world, and where many people start feeling the affects of Seasonal Affective Depression (SAD). In many earlier posts here on my blog, I talk about this disorder quite extensively, because I have suffered from it for decades. But it got me thinking: Am I getting depressed because my flesh is telling me to be depressed? Or is it my soul? Well, my soul belongs to Christ Yeshua, and therefore no stain must be on it. This includes any type of negativity. Now, before anyone gets on their high horse and starts criticizing me, allow me to continue. I am NOT, I repeat, I am NOT saying that depression is a sin. I am not saying anxiety or any other disorder of the mind is sin. Maybe it is, and maybe it isn’t. Sin comes in many forms, whether it be self-inflicted, generational, ancestral, etc…Since I am not God, I really can’t answer that. What I AM saying is, is that we CHOOSE to continue down that path of depression, without trying to find ways to rid of it. Many people assume that since they have it, they just need to either a) put a band-aid on it with medicine or material goods, or b) just deal with it. Sure, those are fine and all, but there is more! If we feel deep down, depressed, anxious, angry, hurt…why are we not speaking to Abba about this? Why are we just throwing our hands up in the air and saying, “Welp! That time of year has come! Time to get the sun lamp out!” Or “Time to buy extra tissues cause there’s gonna be a lot of crying!” What ever happened to ” Lord, deliver me from the sadness that I am going through. If it is in Your will, please remove the pain I have at this time every year. And if it not in Your will, please fill me up with your wisdom, gladness and joy, so that I may rejoice in You, Lord, in knowing praises to You will relieve me from this torment.”
We are so CONSUMED by our own wants and needs, we completely miss the boat on what the Father wants us to do! This is why leading a life dedicated to Christ Yeshua Messiah is one of the hardest walks of anyone’s life. Yet it can be done! It’s just literally a matter of whether we choose to walk it. And I mean TRULY WALK IT.
When you become saved, you learn that certain things that were once part of you are no longer a burden or necessity. That certainly doesn’t mean that everything negative in our life will go away. But with a great amount of will, along with certain understandings that no longer prove valid, we CAN get past the worldly burdens. The enemy burns into our brains that in order to survive on this earth, we have to endure these standards of living. Nope, not even close. If you have Abba in your heart, live by grace and follow His commands, rest assured that reward He talks about will be great when we leave this earth.
For me? That burden was death.
Am I afraid of death? Not like I used to be. Sometimes I would think about death so much I wouldn’t sleep for days. When someone I love passes away, I always had this feeling of utter sadness that I will never see them again, talk to them again, embrace them again. And when you allow your physical human nature to take over your soul, well then, yeah, you’re going to feel those deep feelings of detachment. I can honestly say I have been blessed with this notion that God loves us SO much, He will NEVER put us in a situation where the end result would be so traumatically negative, we couldn’t recover. When you allow God to take over in your life, you learn these valuable lessons of refinement and continue to walk in His footsteps. I get this now. And I know that whether I am raptured in this life, or pass away before it actually happens, I know deep down I will not only be reunited with my Beloved Yeshua, but with those who left this planet before me.
Christ is coming.
There is NO time to say, “I’ll prepare tomorrow” or “When I get a chance I’ll do it”…because all it takes is one second. One second…for life as we know it to change. Thousands, if millions, WILL disappear. Chaos and despair will cover the earth. What side of that coin do you want to be on?
My dreams lately have been reflecting the possibility that the heavens are moving and shaking things up. Everything going on in the news from peace talks and earthquakes clearly show something big is about to happen.
So many people don’t believe me when I say this. So many say that this is all bogus, that it will never happen.
So many people also believed that terrorists would never attack our soil.
And yet, 9/11 happened.
Christ is coming, brothers and sisters. The Marriage Supper of the Lamb is getting ready. The invitations have been sent out. Respond yes. Be prepared. We are in the season of the great catching away. Do you want to go home to paradise? Or would you rather wait and see what happens?
It’s been over 3 months since this new chapter unfolded before me. And I have to tell you, it’s been pretty amazing. Well, it would probably be more amazing without the Arctic freeze and snow every few days, but I also know it could be worse. Every so often during these 2 months, temperatures having been swinging around in the 40’s and 50’s, so the temperatures will alert the sleeping flowers and trees that dawn is approaching for their big wake-up call. And then we get snow. Or a day where its 10 degrees fahrenheit. Another month or so, and we will start seeing some buds on the trees, and maybe a crocus or two!
But I digress…I wanted to get online and talk about a piece of scripture that came across my eyes today. Numbers 11:5
I immediately thought of my friend Chad, who after telling him I started reading the Bible, he said jokingly, “Let me know when you get to Numbers. ” I have to admit, I have avoided Numbers like the plague for that very reason!
But, Jesus has other plans for me, I guess.
Anyway, I was listening to this prophetic word on YouTube one morning, when this passage was brought up. I decided to look it up, and literally sat here at my desk, completely clueless as to what it meant. I decided to reach out to a fellow Brother in Christ/Bible Study Teacher/Good Friend and Partner of my BFF haha… (yeah, he has lots of titles), and he gave me a brief albeit solid explanation to the passage.
“In context it was the Jewish people wandering in the desert whining about how good they had it when they were slaves. Their eyes were off the blessings of the Lord providing daily manna, they were lusting for the “good ole days…”
WOW. For an instant I got it. I understood what the Israelite’s were complaining about. I understand it, because I felt that way through my first marriage, and my last place of employment. Even if life was hell, it was stable. It was something that I knew, and no matter how bad it got, at least I knew what to expect, rather than having not a clue of what’s happening. It’s why I don’t like surprises. It’s why I tend to know exactly what my step-son is going to say/do before it happens. My need to know everything around me consumed my life. I had to be in the know with everything and complained when I didn’t know what was going on. Right now, I am going through that, but, I decided last month to take up the Cross and allow God to do with me as He saw fit. And my life has been nothing short of a miracle. Since 2004, I have been longing to be back home, and after 13 years, here I am. Don’t get me wrong, I am still diligently looking for a job, but I also know God knows my heart and knows exactly where I will thrive. So, following in His footsteps rather than my own is definitely humbling and very difficult. I’ve never been a patient person, and living on a daily instant gratification for things has created something within me I am not proud of. Getting back to basics and bringing myself back into Spirit, well, I can easily say it’s not easy. Yet the infinite patience of our Father is astounding, and no one should really question that. It’s very difficult to not look on the outward appearance of things and instead look within. But looking within is where the real treasure is. Seeing the very thing that God created us in the first place for, that is where the miracles sit. How many in this world have been honestly able to see that? I’m 44 years old, and seeing this through my child-like eyes is like looking upon a unicorn – you can’t believe it’s real but there it is standing in front of you.
Sometimes, God allows difficult times to happen in order for the amazing things to take place. I think I may have mentioned this in my last post. And most likely, I will mention it in the next one. I think it’s important to remember that. We are so caught up our egocentric minds, that there isn’t any room for God. In order for us to truly allow God into our lives and hearts, we must let go of our worldly desires.
It’s not easy. But think of the Parable of the rich man who wanted to enter the Kingdom of Heaven….Incidentally enough, it’s the next verses in Matthew Chapter 10:
17 And when he was gone forth into the way, there came one running, and kneeled to him, and asked him, Good Master, what shall I do that I may inherit eternal life?
18 And Jesus said unto him, Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God.
19 Thou knowest the commandments, Do not commit adultery, Do not kill, Do not steal, Do not bear false witness, Defraud not, Honour thy father and mother.
20 And he answered and said unto him, Master, all these have I observed from my youth.
21 Then Jesus beholding him loved him, and said unto him, One thing thou lackest: go thy way, sell whatsoever thou hast, and give to the poor, and thou shalt have treasure in heaven: and come, take up the cross, and follow me.
22 And he was sad at that saying, and went away grieved: for he had great possessions.
23 And Jesus looked round about, and saith unto his disciples, How hardly shall they that have riches enter into the kingdom of God!
24 And the disciples were astonished at his words. But Jesus answereth again, and saith unto them, Children, how hard is it for them that trust in riches to enter into the kingdom of God!
25 It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle, than for a rich man to enter into the kingdom of God. (Matthew 10:17-25 KJV)
So, I let go of control of my life, and gave it to God. And it hasn’t been the same ever since. And every wish I had dreamed of regarding how I wished my life would be has been humbly coming true.
Well, I gotta get back to some work here at home. Lots to do today, lots of prayers to be said. Lots of praises to our Almighty for all He has given me. One of the things I find humorous, is that in 1 Corinthians 11, it talks about women covering their head when talking to God. Well, I talk to God ALL DAY, so I guess I need to have my head covered all day! HA!
Okay, so yeah, I did say I was going to be blogging more regularly…BACK IN SEPTEMBER…so, obviously, I need to take a step back from promising things I am not 100% sure of. But we’re here now, so hey! What’s happening????
Lots has happened, I really don’t even know where to begin. I celebrated my year being saved on November 18th, 2017 and was able to go to church the next morning and just worship till my hearts content; absolutely smitten with God in such a way I became incredible emotional during the FIRST SONG. Yeahhhh…doesn’t take much anymore to bring on the old briny tears. Think about it: Have you ever been in love with anyone? Or anything? Like something takes your breath away SO much you cannot help by release the endorphins because it’s just too dang much for your physical body to hold onto anymore. That’s how I feel about Jesus. I know, it sounds weird. And it’s not like in a romantic (obviously) way that I feel for my husband. No, this is different. I understand what unconditional love is, because you realize that NOTHING He can or cannot do will ever sway your love for Him. That’s how I feel.
Unfortunately, my love for my God came with a big cost. People who were a part of my journey walked out of my life so fast I couldn’t even blink fast enough. People don’t like hearing about an absolute. No, in today’s society, the idea of “whatever” is more apropos than having a solid foundation of 1 thing. In a world where New Age philosophies are gaining popularity every second, one usually doesn’t even notice how these philosophies have infiltrated almost every mainstream religion. And no, I am not condemning anyone here for living this life or believing these things. I was there for over 10 years, and if there was anything that upset me more, was judgement over my beliefs. Just because I no longer adhere to these principals, does not mean I am pointing my finger at others who do. And sure, do I get criticized for not pointing my finger and trying to “save” those people? Every time. In fact, it’s one of the very reasons why I haven’t blogged here. I found it emotionally exhausting trying to placate every single thing I was posting on social media, knowing full well there were some waiting on the edge of their seats for me to say something that contradicts their own ideas of anything. Some times it wasn’t even about religion. I realized that my life quickly was being looked upon the social media population with a microscope, and I’ll admit I had difficulty trying to keep a smile on my face every day. Look, I understand that I cannot make everyone happy, but it came to a point where one had to throw their hands up in defeat, realizing you couldn’t make ANYONE happy. That has always been a point of weakness for me. I admit that. In all my years of spiritual and emotional growth, I am still incredibly naive in areas of others’ opinions of me. Here’s the thing: I’m not here to “save” anyone. That’s an intimate relationship with the divine, and my ego learned very quickly only I can save myself. Everyone is on their own when making any final agreement with our Creator. But if I want to be a beacon of light and help those who ask for it, in the words of George Costanza, I’ll do it every day of the week and twice on Sunday.
But, over the last 3 weeks, when my life changed quickly and drastically, I found out that it cannot matter anymore. That no matter how much you try, it is really a battle that never can be won in the flesh. Something I learned over this last year: Don’t hate the person. You’re not fighting the person in front of you; you are fighting with an evil entity who is inside of them, creating a sort of chaos in their mind and body, allowing them to hate, ridicule and belittle anything and anyone for any reason. You can be the most faithful servant to God, but you are still human. And when living on this 3 dimensional planet, where evil and demonic forces are everywhere, waiting to pounce on anything that shows weakness, it becomes a never ending saga of “how can I get around it next time”. And that’s just suicide, folks.
Did you know that in the first prayer Jesus taught everyone, the Our Father? Well, the ending part of the prayer, most say, “But deliver us from evil”, is actually INCORRECT. No, the correct version at the end of this prayer actually says, “But deliver us from the evil one.”
THE EVIL ONE.
We are dealing with evil principalities on the other side who want nothing more than to see us fail and live in darkness and shame. They thrive on it. Where do you think the old saying, “When it rains, it pours” comes from? When weakness is found, the feed on it until they are full, and sadly, their hunger for your demise is never ending.
In the last 3 weeks, I have had a lot of time to think about life. About MY life, and the people within this life I hold dear. My husband and sons, my adult puppy, my parents, sister, extended family and all my friends…They are the ones that matter. Nothing and NO ONE ELSE. (Is it weird my brain went right to a Metallica song? All of a sudden I was hearing James Hetfield in his low voice singing, “No, nothing else matters….” – That’s what I get for being married to a metal head).
Tomorrow is my 44th birthday. WOOHOO!!!!! Grab the balloons and confetti! This girl is another year older! This last trip around the sun was definitely interesting. So many high highs, along with just as many low lows. But, the truth is, I’m still standing right here, with a big old smile on my face. Sure, my smile looks a little more weathered, as the fine lines and little wrinkles here and there are starting to pop up in odd places, but I haven’t felt this peaceful in years. Seriously! I would love to tell you my secret, but right now, it’s not the time. (But I promise I will, eventually!)
(between the hundreds of cowlicks, the wrinkles on my forehead from years of scowling, and all that rosacea on that nose, my 44th is coming in full swinging!)
I WILL, though, tell you what I am doing NOW. I’ve been a busy gal, working on a few businesses. I am a Presenter for Younique now, as well as a Founding Consultant for EllaTina (a legging and soon-to-be more clothing styles company), a Consultant for Nutrasail, and of course we cannot forget the good old Bohemian Hobbit Apothecary .
I am currently in the process of laying out the 2018 Gardens. Due to my faith change, the name of our homestead has changed as well. I am thinking of calling it Morning Glory Homestead, as we are inundated with Morning Glories EVERYWHERE! Some people, as well as lots of landscapers, say that they are this invasive weed, but this gal right here think they are just so beautiful! So, I chose to just trellis them up, rather than remove them. The Purpledead Nettles, on the other hand, are something that make me want to stick pins in my eyes.
I am going to be working 3 different types of gardening this year: Garden of Eden, Hugleculture, and Core gardening. Each one has it’s place in Permaculture, but all with a different spin to it. So, different areas of my property will house one of those ways. 2017 Garden was definitely more of a success than 2016, as we ended up with tomatoes and peppers galore! And the herbs came back with a vengeance, by end of July, the gardens looked lovely!
(just some of the garden in its prime)
And lucky for me, this gal gets to continue, or better yet, start her gardening earlier than even this coming year! Sitting in a box, is my little side greenhouse that will connect to our back doors. I cannot even tell you how excited I am about this new journey with my gardening, and so happy my Dad is going to help me put it together! Keep an eye out for the finished product in January!
And finally, we are hoping this coming spring we will finally get our kitchen window put in. Having no windows in our kitchen makes it dark and rather gloomy. And I need light to keep me happy.
So, I am prepared to have a lovely Christmas and New Year with family and my closest of friends, and I really am just so excited for what 2018 is going to bring. I feel that 2018 will be a year of incredible blessings! I truly believe that if I did not have the ONE thing in my life, I would not be where I am right now.
The Resurrected Christ
And I truly believe that He is up in my gardens in Heaven right now, tending to everything, waiting for my time to come up there and be with Him. Over the last 6 months, I’ve been given visions through dreams of what it’s like up there. I’d like to say that what I saw in my dreams were real. Why?
Faith, my friends. Faith.
My next blog will talk about what I saw up there. Until then, have a very Merry Christmas and a Happy Happy 2018!!!!